見え透いた嘘 信じ切ったりして
気付いたこと 気付いたこと
もう立ち止まるには遅いということ
From those transparent lies I believed in
I noticed something, I noticed
that it's all too late to stop myself in my tracks.
黒ずんだ心 放っておいたりして
分かったこと 分かったこと
もう立ち直るには遅いということ
Releasing myself from my blackening heart
I understood, I understood
that it's all too late to get back on my feet.
ああ、そんな奴の子に生まれて
惨めを真面目に蔑まれて
分かってることは否認の失敗と
形骸化した愛よ
Alas, born as a young boy
whose true self was miserable and ashamed,
I knew it came from a denial of his mistakes
and a love reduced to an empty shell.
おぼこ娘のおとめさび
役立たないものと覚えたり
残った役目は奴隷の再生成
それだけが生命
as I learned there was nothing useful
in a pure girl playing [the part of] a lady,
my remaining duty was to be a regenerated slave,
that's just my life.
この輪廻転生を仕舞えよ
いざぶち壊したれよこの世と
心と
体と
これまでの無数の安寧を
Put an end to this cycle of reincarnation
and come and destroy this world,
this heart,
this body
and the infinite amount of peace you've had until now.
はびこった偶像を見捨てよ
絡まった現状を見切れよ
冷たく
正しく
切り取れよ、歪んだ迎合を
Abandon those overpowered idols
and your tangled existing state.
Coldly,
properly,
rip away from a crooked ingratiation.
残念に 生まれ損なったあなたには
どう足掻いても
見るも無残な生き先しか
残っていないから。
いっそのこと、涙は枯らして
潔く諦めようぜ
そうして幸せになろうぜ
Regrettably, you were born a failure
and even if you struggle
there's nothing left that remains
but a tragic life.
It's better to let your tears dry,
bravely abandon hope
and then start being happy.
見え透いた嘘 貪ったりして
気付いたこと 気付いたこと
もう夢の終わりが近いということ
From those transparents lies I lusted [insatiably] for
I noticed something, I noticed that
the end of these dreams was already close.
黒ずんだ言葉 言い放ったりして
分かったこと 分かったこと
もう罪の咎めは近いということ
Shouting out darkening words directly,
I understood, I understood that
the blame for my sins had already drawn near.
そんな無様なカタチに生まれて
自分に向く吐き気に追われて
分かってることは否認の失敗と
機能不全の愛よ
Born into such an unshapely form,
chased by a sick-feeling directed at myself,
I knew it came from a denial of my mistakes
and a dysfunctional love.
おぼこ娘のおとめさび
げに下らんものと見付けたり
叶えて進ぜよう、まだ見ぬ君の
「産まれたくない」を
It was indeed foolish
for a pure girl to be approached as a lady,
I'll grant your wish, you still
don't "want to be born".
この輪廻転生を仕舞えよ
いざぶち壊したれよこの世と
心と
体と
これまでの無数の安寧を
Put an end to this cycle of reincarnation
and come and destroy this world,
this heart,
this body
and the infinite amount of peace you've had until now.
この森羅万象を逃れよ
入り組んだ感情を躱せよ
この手に
この目に
刻まれた無数の重態を
Escape from all things in creation,
avoid all intricate emotions
and in those hands
those eyes,
countless serious conditions etched in.
度重なる
自問自答、危険思想
大体喰らい尽くした愛の本性
今に見てろよと切った啖呵の純然かつ不格好な敗走
「生きてる間だけが全てだ」って信じきってる純な妄想誕生！
と、
奴隷の再生産、それだけの生命
Repeated again and again,
the answer to those questions, dangerous thoughts;
the real nature of a love consumed to exhaustion.
Looking at the now, I cut away those sheer caustic words and
misshapen debacles,
believing in the naive "This life is all you've got!" delusion
of creation!
So,
to live as a slave over and over, that's just my life.
繋いでは切って安全を自ら失っていく妙な快感
湿っぽい言葉ぶちまけてやって密室に湧く次の犠牲者
こんな気持も味わえる時点で解っているだろう この世のこと
こんな痛みも味わえる時点で解っているだろう その後のこと
A strangely pleasant feeling from cutting off connections and losing my own safety,
the next victim appears in a room that can't be unlocked and I open my heart of all melancholic words.
I wonder if I make sense of these feelings, could I understand the things of this world?
Once I'm able to make sense of this pain, will I understand what comes after?
笑えないことばかりだったよな、
いつからか
積り積もった思い出に
クラっとくるわ！
両の視界を濡らして濡らして
終わったあれと別れようぜ
I wasn't able to laugh anymore,
since when was that?
These memories that keep on piling up
are making me dizzy!
Both of my eyes are getting wetter and wetter,
so I'll part from that which ended.
完全に 生まれ損なったあなたには
どう もがいても
見るも無残な生き先しか
選べないから。
いっそのこと、涙は枯らして
ためらわずに 旅立とうか
もう一度 産まれ直そうか
そうして幸せになろうぜ
君は何も悪くないぜ
多分
You were born a complete failure
and even if you struggle
there's nothing left that remains
but a tragic life.
It's better to let your tears dry,
and then will you travel on without wavering?
Or be reborn once again?
Then like that, you'll be happy
as you'll have done nothing wrong.
(Probably).